Apparently...I Tailgate

This morning, my mother tells me not to tailgate. "Tailgating," by my definition, involves an enraged driver following a foot behind someone else. I do no do this. After discussing this with my husband, I have realized that I do follow too closely. I believe this says several things about me:

1. I am impatient.
2. I do not live in the moment.
3. I am too close of a follower.

Impatience is not a virtue. It is a vice and possibly a sin. I want things to happen quickly. Beyond quickly. I want things done yesterday. Because I am so impatient, I rarely exist in the moment. I am always looking to the future, trying to plan and map out the next moment. What I need to be doing next. Where I need to be next. How quickly can I get from point A to point B.

I follow close behind. I chase the car in front of me. In many ways, it is a concern of expectation, a topic I will be blogging about soon. That person in front of me is going to arrive where they are going sooner than I. Again, impatience, not living in the moment, and not practicing the presence of God.

Perhaps I am reading a bit too much into my driving habits. Or, perhaps my actions are a symptom of my current mental, emotional, and spiritual state.

So today, I am going to act the way that I want to feel.I am going to allow 2-3 car lengths between me and the car in front of me and I'm going to try to let go and let God.