I'm trying to look on the bright side of life and focus on blessings, but to be honest with you, today was kind of stinky. My dentist didn't numb me well enough and liked to killed me when drilling. Then, my sister really hurt my feelings when she and my mother went to a movie that she had originally asked me to go to. I don't mind that she went with my mother, but I mind that they both went with out me. I know it's stupid, but I just feel like no one wants to do fun things with me. Maybe I'm just not fun?
And, I've been having bad dreams. Crazy dreams. Nightmares about Nathanial. To make long dreams really short: I dreamt that as a teenager, Nathanial hated me and blamed me for his arm. Then, I dreamt that the Devil was attacking my baby and my home in general. I hate dreams like that.
I know that perception is reality and I know that today was not a "bad" day. I know that I am still overwhelmingly blessed. So, I still feel the need to count a few of my blessing:
- My employer who is hard to keep up with in a wonderful ways!
- My husband, who puts up with my bad moods.
- My cutie boo-boo bear.
- Clean hot and cold water (That's a big one with me, if you haven't noticed. It will Always be on the list because it's something I don't ever want to take for granted and something I know many others don't have.)
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